Wow so much can change in just one day!
My sister Stacy overdosed over the Holiday Season and almost died; she claims she saw Grandma Lucille. And Bryan has Covid. We were all around each other over the Holiday Season and Sharri and her kids were with us too, it has been 10 long months almost one whole year of Covid and I am plain sick and tired of it. We have been so careful always wearing masks at work, I was the only Teacher who cared enough to wear a mask, and I always made sure Pete did. God answered each and every one of my prayers as I prayed each morning to protect me and my Family from Corona Virus and thanking HIM for coming up with a cure soon.
And now this? I could not wait for our Family to all be together for our first Christmas in over 2 years since we were all together with Eme finally being out of Prison and my recovery from depression was over 7 years past Christmas times so this was going to be a most joyous occasion. We had so much to celebrate and be thankful for. And we did, and we were, it was a happy beautiful day, even my sister came from Utah to see us!
And then, just like that, in one day everything went bad and scary, Bryan gets Covid, now our whole Family is in quarantine and Stacy almost dies. WOW I know SO MUCH SHIT to deal with, it's a lot of stress but guess what I AM NOT GOING TO LET THIS STEAL MY JOY!!! oh no I will NOT let this define me! I have been through worse! I will keep on praying, keep on believing, keep on declaring that my God is in the middle of miracles, and He is in the process of restoring everything that was lost to us- and we are all going to see health and wellness in the new year of 2021.
even if I don't see anything happening yet because deep down, I know that things are going to just keep getting better and better and better. I will NOT settle for less, I will refuse all fear, doubts, worries, what if's, I am NOT the old Jayda that I used to be I have a new and better life in Christ, and I will only allow positivity and goodness into my life. I will empty all the negative, all the ugly, all the toxic energy!
So with all that said here are my notes for the week and they are right on!
Jesus calling-- Don't be weighed down by the clutter in your life. Let me be the forefront of your awareness, your ultimate goal is to live close to me being responsive to my initiatives. I can communicate with you more readily when your mind is uncluttered and toward me. Do not fear your weakness for it is the stage on which my power and glory perform most brilliantly, expect to see miracles and you will!! They are not always visible to the naked eye but those who live by faith can see them clearly.
Praise and worship are the best responses to the wonder of my Being, to sing praises to my holy name, gaze at me in silent adoration. I am the light from on High that dawns upon you to guide your feet into the way of peace. Come to me and rest in my presence. Since I went to such extreme measures to save you from your sins you can be assured that I will graciously give you all you need. I have even designed to live within you and my light will shine through you into the world.
I spoke to you from the depths of eternity before the World was formed, I AM!! You hear me in the depths of your being where I have taken up residence, I am Christ in you! the hope of glory. I your Lord and Savior am alive within you, learn to tune into my living presence by seeking me in silence, as you celebrate the wonder of my birth celebrate your rebirth into eternal life. Take time to explore the vast dimensions of my love, allow thankfulness to flow freely from your heart, let my peace rule in your heart and be thankful. As you wait attentively in my presence the light of the knowledge of my glory shines upon you. This radiant knowledge transcends all understanding it transforms every fiber of your being renewing your mind and cleansing your heart invigorating your body, open yourself fully to my presence be awed by my glorious Being. As you identify with me Heaven opens up before you granting you glimpses of my glory. I am the gift that continues to give with no strings attached. I am aching to hold you in my everlasting arms to enfold you in my love. When you are feeling unworthy or unloved come to me then ask for receptivity to my unfailing love
Do not let the enemy tell you to turn back around! DONT LOOK BACK!! Do not remember the former things nor consider the things of old.
Behold I will do a new thing. Now it shall spring forth shall you not know it?? I will even make a road in the wilderness and rivers in the desert Isaiah 43:19
It's time to get up, this year is different let the past go! I want to be new Jesus can do all things and He is in you. Make a decision that you are not going to live another day without the joy of the Lord in your life. You may not have the perfect life, but you can still choose to live each day aglow with Gods presence. Much of life is routine and we can become stagnant if we are not careful to stay filled with the Holy Spirit, He alone can renew our spirit daily, sing and make music in your heart to the Lord Ephesians 5:18-19
Wherever you are in life make the most of it! be the best that you can be, you need to appreciate and be excited about the opportunities God has given you. Let your light become a praise song to God by proclaiming His glorious presence in the world. Have joy in serving, do not take one day for granted. Sometimes God wipes your picture because He is up to something different. Help me God to be faithful for what you place in front of me. Be full of joy so that other people will want what you have. Do your work with excellence. Is the way I'm living attractive and contagious? will my attitudes, the words I speak, my expressions, the way I handle challenges and setbacks cause anybody to want what I have?? Are you drawing people to God because of your joy?? BE LIKE CHRIST. Don't just show up for work go through the motions passionately fulfill your destiny. You have filled my heart with greater joy than when their grain and new wine abound. Overcome negativity by being positive encouraging and uplifting.
end of notes--
wow I know they are always so good, and they always fit right into whatever I am going through.
Eme has been home since December 12th. It has been a lot; we are all overwhelmed! It's just a lot with her coming home, Christmas, Family get togethers, even though we are all so very grateful to be together again there has just been a lot for us especially with Covid going on.
me now in December, Christmas day 2020. The co2 did NOT last, only for a couple of months. The wrinkles all came back, and this makes me sad and discouraged but I'm giving it all to the Lord.
I need to be so thankful that I am still alive, healthy, been protected from Covid when almost the whole world has died from it, I can see, I can smell, and I can taste, so all this I am grateful for, I really need to let go of vanity and be happy with who I am
wrinkles and all!
